7/23/08
I feel much better today; yesterday was so despondent, felt like I’ve fallen into the abyss again. I can’t say I’ve climbed back up, but I do not feel much trepidation… at least for now, I’m composed.
Though the subject of backpacking still lingers much fervently, I’m still contemplating on it. It’s gonna be a huge decision. Sometimes, I simply think too much, but if I don’t, whatever I do will be seen as impetuous. I most certainly do not want my family to think I’m being irresponsible. (Will they?)
I’ve got so many plans in my mind that I’m afraid that not even one’s gonna get fulfilled. Thanks to myself for being too fickle, can’t seem to settle on anything. I have many thoughts/dreams that I’m not sure which one is imperative anymore, because everything seems equally important. Guess the downfall will be, not getting any dreams being fulfilled.
Work is indisputably going through a bad patch right now, there are backlogs to clear & then there’s this loma exams coming in November. Have yet to decide if I wanna register for it for I’m afraid that I might not last till then.
I was told that the peak season is Oct-Jan, but now we’re already in July and the ‘peak’ never seem to go off. Everyone’s busy with his or her work and they stayed till late. For me, the latest till 8 and I refused to go beyond that. Well, that’s me… I’m simply not as hardworking as the rest. For having to sit in front of the pc for nearly 12 hours, feel as if I’m going blind soon. These days, I don’t even spend much time to ‘dawdle’ in cyberspace.
6:28 PM
